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"Pure Love Explained" - Thursday, January 04, 2007

conceptualize what I'm beginning,
to realize evasive purity of love.
Yet not at all impossible discovery,
since tasted her indeed, the blessed scent
and sweet - its holy nectar
You see, the thing to do for actuation,
is hold on to the dream from incubation.
and search not ever for it to appear,
but trust in faith its always very near.
However first to recognize it,
alert indeed you must to soulful pit.
since in yourself to first a bloom
to fit the one you've spaced the room.
okay before i run along to far ahead,
elaborate i will for you instead.
it starts the first time you long toward,
that distant quiet hope for a reward.
now stop and quiet think for just a moment,
the first time you endured that painful torment.
extrapilate the joy of newness,
electrically dispersed by first caress.
now hold on tight to this as we continue,
to build toward indeed the fullest true.
now take the dreams from torn exasperation,
toward each refined honing expectation.
and then again another comes along,
which we of course believe we should belong.
but wait, no this again is circular result,
and joy and pain arrive and then depart.
so on and on each new one brings us twitters,
to hold on tight to faith, or suffer bitters.
remember how i said to hold the warmest feeling?
this is how you define what keeps you reeling.
the warm inside of you that is refined,
will clearly outline all you have defined.

(Now caution must i now alert for warn,
the window of this love is slimly shown.
to choose not listen to its quiet calling,
do not be caught when daily winds start blowing.
because you'll never know its past you by
until too late you'll wish it as you cry.
remember that in strength and trust to be,
to truly hold this loosely and stay free.
since every evil thing will suddenly appear,
since hate and fear and jealously will sneer.
destroying what you know is true two hearts,
the strength and equal balance it imparts.
as fear and doubt and past oppression,
cause to make your dreams a mass deception.
Just trust your heart, your hope, your faith,
and pray of course for guidance in this path.
because the evil hates the pure of love,
just as he hates the coming of the dove.
he'll steal and kill in every way he can,
using your past, your family and friend.
and one thing more i want to say,
keep this in your heart from day to day.
and hold on tight to it inside yourself,
since it will hold you in your wealth.
and view it as a gift from God above,
because the spirit is a guide of love.
yet if perchance you lose this precious thing,
by evil, hate or whatever else will spring.
hold tight to what you knew inside as truth,
don't let it steal you from the joy of youth.
since in this one of pure experience,
will help you stand life's constant variance.
and if you lose it (as i did for shame),
you'll know that you were never one to blame.
to keep it as a light for morrow's rent,
to keep you light and know time was well spent.
since drive you will this love for evermore,
to keep the joy inside you pure to store.
Because for me it keeps my hope in constant strength,
and adds to me a love, daily shared at length.)

Now 39 am I, and all of this I've done,
and yes I've lost too much, yet I have won!
The trip is not the poison from the yeast,
but in the having once instead at least.
because in patient faith waiting to become,
the soulmate I was made to join as one.
i knew it so completely that from just then,
i measure all the rest by her blooms stem.
not in dispair or blood out poured,
but rather yet, perfection once endured.
because just once indeed can you realize,
if truly self aware and promised wise.
No matter how the outcome has occured.
I'll love her all my life by heart and word.
as matter shown my muse she's still shown here
and write about loves truth without a fear.
So, if you still hope what i express,
do so with waiting faith, not hunting stress.
because you only service to achieve,
a multitude of pain you'll not relieve.
but wait like I for perfect to appear,
the one true piece to fit without the fear.
since when that moment will occur,
you'll know its him or know its her.
A God-like oneness which reflects the purity of union.
If you've tasted this, you'll know its not opinion.
However, for yoursake I wish it constant,
and not like I that went and lost it.
How this occured is not of value,
the taste just once is still quite true.
so if you're her and read this story,
i love you still without a worry.
For inside me you grow in beauty,
A gift from God i do know truely.

J.M. 2003 - Oct - 23

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